Funny

I just noticed when I wrote my last post.

It was her birthday.

Tomorrow will be mines.

My 25th.

And there's no chance in the world it will be better than the last one.

Cause last year we still talked.

You were not near me. But we had our best moment. And we've never been closer than then.

I miss all that. I miss you...

Happy birthday me...

So long.

It's almost 6 in the morning.

I'm totally awake, on the couch of my first "my house".

I live by myself.

Not sponsorized by someone. Not in a program.

I'm living my life on my own.

I have a job, sure, part time. And it kinda sucks (could sure be worse) but it has good points.

I have friends. I think I do. I see people caring about me, sometimes I get surprised by how they behave towards me. Mostly I don't understand it.

I'm a weak person. And the bigger part of those who likes me, do so cause of my weakness.

But I wanna be stronger. My weakness isn't taking me anywhere.

Only, if I was to change, I'd lose them, they wouldn't recognize me anymore for what I am.

I don't like my life. I really care about just a few things. And about just a bunch of people.

I have no sense, no meaning. No reason.

But you.

You made my dreams come true.

You made my life meaningful.

You showed me the sense.

YOU are the one that I want.

I see you on cars.

I hear you in commercials and while I work, or at the mall.

You are everywhere, cause YOU are my life.

And even though I can act like I'm fine, even though I can try to keep going and pretend I'm over, I'm not.

I'll never be.

I'll never stop loving you.

I need you, cause you are the part of my life that is missing.

Not a whining, for once... just a confession.

Cause I simply have noone to talk. Cause YOU are the one that I trust more.

If I can't trust you, I can't trust noone.

And I have so much I wish I could tell you.

And I have so much I wish I could live with you.

And I have so much love I wish I could give you.

mi manchi Gaia.