Again...

So here I am back.
Did you miss me?
Had a very bad period, not out of it yet actually. I really miss her. I really feel like I care about nothing... We started talking again, after a lot of time. We had a few chats a while ago, then for her birthday, as a "present" I mailed her my thoughts, the one I wrote down, or noted on my cellphone, during the past year.
Then we got to talk again, seriously this time. She liked that. She said things that gives me hope. and at the same time, nothing to be sure of.
She said next time I should say what I feel before that the person they are aimed to, leaves the country. She said that they reached her heart, and she loves the way I write. She said she would like to see me, and she miss me.
So many things she said.
So many she said before all this, and that meant nothing in the end. What should I expect this time?
She was sorry for the way she tried to close all this. and for how she reacted, and things she wrote me. And I can't be angry at her. But does this means something changed?

I really am scared by how happy she is to talk with me, how she act like if she was jealous, or sad when I have to leave.
Let not this be all dust, again...
Let not this be just me dreaming...
Please...