omg

omg wow....really...

O.O

So? What i should think now?


Damn...


So far, from my lair, it's all.
Thanks for the attention

Illusion

i don't need other words...

I don't know

I really don't... it looks so obvious, so clear. Still I don't feel sure, I still fear I could be imagining it all.
She said it. Does she really mean it. Does she mean it the way I do, the way I want her to?
Or is it just a nice way to say she feels something for me.
It's so weird. She said the words I most wanted her to say. And still I'm here, wondering if I can finally be free to be happy...
I wish it to be true...

Again...

So here I am back.
Did you miss me?
Had a very bad period, not out of it yet actually. I really miss her. I really feel like I care about nothing... We started talking again, after a lot of time. We had a few chats a while ago, then for her birthday, as a "present" I mailed her my thoughts, the one I wrote down, or noted on my cellphone, during the past year.
Then we got to talk again, seriously this time. She liked that. She said things that gives me hope. and at the same time, nothing to be sure of.
She said next time I should say what I feel before that the person they are aimed to, leaves the country. She said that they reached her heart, and she loves the way I write. She said she would like to see me, and she miss me.
So many things she said.
So many she said before all this, and that meant nothing in the end. What should I expect this time?
She was sorry for the way she tried to close all this. and for how she reacted, and things she wrote me. And I can't be angry at her. But does this means something changed?

I really am scared by how happy she is to talk with me, how she act like if she was jealous, or sad when I have to leave.
Let not this be all dust, again...
Let not this be just me dreaming...
Please...

Motivation

So how do you tell the person you love, Who is trying to help you out of your tunnel of misery, that they Are the reason for you to be in it?
How do you answer when they ask you why you lack of motivation, and you know the reason is that you miss them too much to care about anything else?
When they ask you what you really can't do without, and the only answer you come up with is "You"...

To this one I actually answered honestly, even if I backed up right after...


So tired of this all...




So far, from my lair, it's all.
Thanks for the attention

2 years.

Just look at me, Im living proof, that time heals nothing!
Just look at me, Im living proof, that time heals nothing!

I've got these feelings, alive in my head
Don't listen to reason, they only see red
And I'm coming to get you, coming to get you
On the day I find you the sun will shine,
the birds will sing, everything will be right
I'm coming to get you, And I'm coming to get you




I miss you so much. I love you so much...